"Behaviour that's admired is the path to power among people everywhere" ~Beowulf, Seamus Heaney Every one loves a great hero story. We line up in droves to see the latest superhero movie. We cheer on the protagonist in an action feature as he annihilates bad guys left and right. We find ourselves tearing up as … Continue reading The need for heroes, an introduction
Wow. It has been one crazy ride these last few days. A few weeks ago our HVAC unit stopped working at peak performance just in time for a record breaking heat wave. Our tankless water heater, not to be out done, has been experiencing a nervous breakdown and we have had surprise hot water shortages. … Continue reading Finding the miracle in the little things
This concept seems a rather odd inspiration in which to write about neuroendocrine cancer, yet it has been on my mind for a while now. It was first introduced to me in a short story by Thomas Pynchon in my American Literature Survey class and the story just stuck with me. This story seems especially … Continue reading Just what does entropy have to do with NET cancer anyway?
Here I sit, at quarter to eleven in the morning, in my pajamas with absolutely no intention of getting a shower. To be quite honest, I'm actually afraid of the shower and how I am going to feel afterward. Anyone who has experienced chronic pain and the accompanying fatigue will understand...the shower is just a … Continue reading It’s a purple butterfly zebra kind of life
The last few days have been rough ones for me. Since starting cancer treatment, I have found myself locked up in the house for days on end, speaking to almost no one, and wishing for my old life back. Having all this time on my hands has made it difficult not to think about the … Continue reading Casting away anxiety
"I can't believe that! said Alice. "Can't you?" the Queen said in a pitying tone. "Try again: draw a long breath, and shut your eyes." Alice laughed. "There's no use in trying," she said: "one can't believe in impossible things." ~Lewis Carroll, Through the Looking Glass Yes, in today's rational society it has become almost impossible, as … Continue reading Believing in the impossible
"Who are You?" said the Caterpillar. "I-I hardly know, Sir, just at present- at least I know who I was when I got up this morning, but I think I must have been changed several times since then." ~Lewis Carroll, Alice in Wonderland I can really relate to this sentiment, especially after the diagnosis of … Continue reading A brief trip through Wonderland
Sometimes things are better left unsaid. Some aspects of life are better kept in secret, not to be pondered in public places or discussed in polite company. Seriously, when it comes to bathroom habits, many of us take on the morals of the Victorians and blush in a most uncomfortable fashion.
"...there was given me a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.' Therefore I will boast all the more … Continue reading Paul’s thorn and the wounded warrior
"I wish it need not have happened in my time." ~Frodo to Gandalf "So do I...and so do all who live to see such times. But that is not for them to decide. All we have to decide is what to do with the time given us." ~Gandalf's response Living with a chronic illness leaves … Continue reading Say yes to the journey