The last few days have been rough ones for me. Since starting cancer treatment, I have found myself locked up in the house for days on end, speaking to almost no one, and wishing for my old life back. Having all this time on my hands has made it difficult not to think about the … Continue reading Casting away anxiety
"I can't believe that! said Alice. "Can't you?" the Queen said in a pitying tone. "Try again: draw a long breath, and shut your eyes." Alice laughed. "There's no use in trying," she said: "one can't believe in impossible things." ~Lewis Carroll, Through the Looking Glass Yes, in today's rational society it has become almost impossible, as … Continue reading Believing in the impossible
"Who are You?" said the Caterpillar. "I-I hardly know, Sir, just at present- at least I know who I was when I got up this morning, but I think I must have been changed several times since then." ~Lewis Carroll, Alice in Wonderland I can really relate to this sentiment, especially after the diagnosis of … Continue reading A brief trip through Wonderland
Sometimes things are better left unsaid. Some aspects of life are better kept in secret, not to be pondered in public places or discussed in polite company. Seriously, when it comes to bathroom habits, many of us take on the morals of the Victorians and blush in a most uncomfortable fashion.
"...there was given me a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.' Therefore I will boast all the more … Continue reading Paul’s thorn and the wounded warrior
"I wish it need not have happened in my time." ~Frodo to Gandalf "So do I...and so do all who live to see such times. But that is not for them to decide. All we have to decide is what to do with the time given us." ~Gandalf's response Living with a chronic illness leaves … Continue reading Say yes to the journey
"How on earth did it come to me...I wish it need not have happened in my time." ~Frodo to Gandalf, The Fellowship of the Ring I have to admit that maybe I went into the exploratory laparotomy a bit on the cocky side. After speaking with the doctor and being told what to expect, I felt … Continue reading And your grief will turn to joy
Seems strange to say that so far I have had the vacation of my dreams. Here I am, 46 years old and counting, and I have never in my life been off the East Coast of the United States. If it had not been for my husband's transfer to Pennsylvania back in '97, I bet I … Continue reading Be careful what you wish for…
Finding a new "dream"
“There were some that shook their heads and thought this was too much of a good thing; it seemed unfair that anyone should possess (apparently) perpetual youth as well as (reputedly) inexhaustible wealth” ~JRR Tolkien, The Fellowship of the Ring I have to admit, excitement is starting to build. In 18 days I will be … Continue reading Living beyond the “elves and dragons”